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Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 03:52 PM
<center><small>When they didn't cause the pain,<br>it's funny how they say they're glad,<br>when you lie and say you're ok,<br>my life should be spent in total prediction,<br>no outbursts to ruin the mood,<br>for I am quite violent, sadness has struck,<br>no known niceness or virtue<br>I'm just a puppet attached to some strings,<br>doing what "they" tell me to do,<br>but the voices I hear, are really severe,<br>they do everything but comfort and sooth.<br><br>They kick me down, and pull me up,<br>and state that I interfered,<br>but I know all this, I cause my pain,<br>I'm through with all this slander,<br> <br>back and forth through the tunnel of hell,<br>the flames biting, and riding my neck,<br>they rip through my soul, and break me apart,<br>the tones of the screams, I cannot mimic,<br><br>in my harum-scarum ways of life,<br>I have decided to give up,<br>I cannot fight my absent mind,<br>it's the same thing, no let ups.<br><br>I did want some help, but now I dont care,<br>I've done all I can, my time cannot measure,<br>slowly but surly progressing downhill,<br>alone by myself, myself alone still<br>

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:31 PM
<CenteR><small>A crush is not just a crush
When the mere thought of you
Could brighten up even the of worst days.

A crush is not just a crush
When I feel your presence next to me
And I can not help but look away.

A crush is not just a crush
When you simply looking at me
Puts a tremendous smile on my face.

A crush is not just a crush
When just your waving hello
Makes my heart beat at an unusual pace.

A crush is not just a crush
When just by eating lunch with you
My appetite seems to quickly disappear.

A crush is not just a crush
When my hands begin to tremble
The instant you are near.

A crush is not just a crush
When being so nervous around you
Limits our conversation to "Hi" and "Bye"

A crush is not just a crush
When the thought of there being an "us"
Is slowly tearing me apart.

A crush is not just a crush
When I think of you not liking me
And it truly breaks my heart.

01-30-2002, 04:32 PM
Gee these are gloomy. :eek:
Brighten up girl. :angel:
:beer: :beer: :beer: :beer: :beer:

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:32 PM
<Center><small>After a day like this I wish I were dead

Say goodbye to my misery by putting a gun to my head

This day has been full of ups and downs

My usual smiles have been replaced by frowns

What have I done to deserve all of this?

When I am gone there is only one person I will miss

It is a guy I love with my heart and soul

Without him my life would not be whole

If I ever lose him I know I will die

He is the only thing even keeping me alive

He makes all of my days seem so much brighter

He can take any problem and make it all better

The day I lose him is the day I use that gun

Then my misery will be over and my life will be done

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:34 PM
<Center><small>fate has beat me again,

God, I hate this loss,

to think I really had you,

then all of a sudden you walked.

fate has beat me again,

this I have to say,

I tried to stand against it,

but it always finds a way.

fate is never kind,

and never does it care,

it just leaves you with nothing,

and it always seems unfair.

fate has a way,

of sneaking behind your back,

and when you least suspect it,

out comes a cruel attack.

fate please go away,

because you've already ruined my life,

and never did you compromise,

or even think twice

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:35 PM
<CenteR><small>I hate the way u think u know

Exactly how I feel

I hate the way I lied to u

And it became a big deal

I hate the way u made me laugh

But now u make me cry

I hate how we aren't even friends

But all I can do is try

I hate the way your perfect smile

Says everything's ok

I hate the way u said there might

Be an "us" someday

I hate the way I go to sleep

And see u in my dreams

I hate the way I love the way

U make my heart just sink

I hate the way your over me

And how our time is through

I hate the way u broke my heart

And how I still love u

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:37 PM
<CenteR><small>Consider this a warning
Consider this a sign
Consider that thereíll be a time
When I wonít want you for mine
Listen when I tell you
My patience has worn thin
With your endless juvenile escapades
Covered with a grin

You play around so careless
Itís all a game of chance
But soon I wonít be within reach
When itís my turn to dance

Iím tired of the back-and-forth
Iím tired of your pranks
I love you and listen and understand
And get ignored for thanks

You donít know how to love me
You wonít give us a try
You whirl in reckless abandon
And let true love pass you by

You think youíre free and easy
You think youíve got it all
But youíll end up having nothing
And I wonít be there to call.

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:41 PM
<CenteR><small>You never know when someone
might catch a dream from you.
Or something you say may
open up the windows
of a mind that seeks light;
The way you live may not matter at all,
But you never know, it might.

And just in case it could be
that another's life, through you,
might possibly change for the better
with a better and brighter view,
it seems it might be worth a try
at pointing the way to the right;
Of course, it may not matter at all,
but then again, it might.

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:42 PM
<CenteR>my friend sent me this<small><br>I wanted to find some words on a card
That would help to get thru it when life gets so hard
It seems you can't bear it - perhaps can't go on -
When deep in the heart there's no trace of a song.

Some words that would comfort - when late in the night
the trials return and - you're too tired to fight.
Or the tears flow so often it seems you'll run dry.
And life gets so tough that you just want to die -
Or at least go and hide - where you're safe from all pain.
Someplace you can rest 'til you find joy again.

What are the words you so need to hear -
That will help and will heal and remove all the fear -
That builds up inside 'til you think you'll explode -
What are the words that will lighten the load?

If only I knew the right words to say
To encourage and Bless you or comfort some way.
I know not the words but this I can do.
I shall offer up Prayers to the Father for you.

Slamo's Sister
01-30-2002, 04:48 PM
i am sick of life. fullstop.

01-30-2002, 05:31 PM
Gloomy thoughts from a bright young child. :?:
:beer: :beer: :beer: :beer: :beer:

01-30-2002, 06:47 PM

01-31-2002, 12:08 PM
Ss...ok..its obvious u need someone to talk to... as much as i'm enjoying reading ur poems..how bout u try to talk to us (or Pm me or someone else on Msn) as well..?
everyone here has problems. and at one stage or another, most of us have come to the forums(or icq/msn) and talked about them, and i can tell you from experience, that most, if not all of the regulars to the TT forums (especially the BG), are willing to help..they've helped me on a number of occassions.

ask anyone here..Kay, Wiggo, Ws, Beefy, etc....and they'll tell u the same^, they'll also tell u that i am usually just like you..but also willing to help other ppl at the same time...kinda takes my mind off my own probs i guess...

so yeah..drop us a line..i'm/we're all ears:wave: :)

Slamo's Sister
01-31-2002, 01:25 PM
i can't now can i. i can't talk bout it. plus. nar u don't understand. :cry: :grenade: :grenade:

01-31-2002, 06:20 PM
well.. u could, if u were on...
and u can...i'm willing to listen. sure other ppl are too..but u might feel more comfortable in private...
and..i'm sure i would...u'd be suprised :)

01-31-2002, 06:30 PM
Look at the crowd I found that loves ya SS

01-31-2002, 06:57 PM
its the TT crew!: one eye:

Slamo's Sister
02-01-2002, 04:52 PM
<Center><small>no-one loves me. i am all alone.<Br><Br>wanan hear another poem?

02-01-2002, 04:55 PM
<Center><small>no-one loves me. i am all alone.<Br><Br></small></center>
rubbish talk again girlie!

we all luv ya :) *hugs ya*

Slamo's Sister
02-01-2002, 04:59 PM
<centeR><small>the clock hits 12:01<br>it's valentines day<br>nothing to live for<br>nothing left to say<br>the knife's been sharpened<br>the body feels dead<br>the knife cuts through the skin<br>all i can see is red<br>the red of blood<br>the red of rain<Br>i don't need this<br>deservethis pain<Br>when i am gone<br>please don't be sad<br>blame the magizines<br>for getting me mad<br>all this talk bout love<br>being skinny and nice<br>but did the know<br>i'd pay the price?<Br>please tell mum not to cry<Br>and dad that it's okay<br>print; i died for no love<br>but on and for this day.<Br><Br><Br> r.i.p 14/2/02 Valentines Day :cry: :knife:

02-01-2002, 05:22 PM
goddam it!
as Andy said..RUBBISH TALK

02-02-2002, 09:08 AM
once again wiggo posts something nice and cute how does he do it :?: ;)

02-02-2002, 01:28 PM
Its called being old and not having a lot to do with your time ;) :cackle: :cackle:

02-03-2002, 10:30 AM
Its called being old and not having a lot to do with your time ;) :cackle: :cackle:

yeah thats probably it:laugh: